I’ve been reading the book Anything by Jennie Allen for well….a while. Let’s be real. I’ve been reading this book since I don’t know when. No idea when I started it. But that’s not the point. Sometimes I start a book then put it down, and a few months later I pick it up in such a better spot to receive what it says. Because now it applies. Now I need it. Now it makes more sense.
Now is the time I need to be reminded of my anything. That thing that has my passion and my heart that I need and want to be willing to do whenever God may ask me to. Doing the dishes without complaining, moving to Africa, adopting, taking that job that scares me to death, having another baby, seeking out friendships and being more intentional, getting in shape, losing weight, going back to school, spending more quality time with my kids, being uncomfortable. Sometimes, our anythings are scary, but not being willing to do them is even scarier.
I’m slightly obsessed with nature. Like, beautiful nature. Mountains, the ocean, tall tree’s. Landscapes that move me and remind me who put them there. I get caught up in dreaming about all the different places I’d love to run or live or visit. Sometimes I live in dream land too much. You relate? I don’t live in the mountains…I live in Texas. And I want to be present right where I am…but it’s hard sometimes.
Because I love beautiful places I’m often day dreaming about them or pinning pictures of them on Pinterest so that everyone I know thinks we’re going to move to Oregon or Alaska or Switzerland. Because people know your hopes and dreams…..and bathroom reno idea’s…just by looking at your Pinterest page. It’s true. Trust me. Go search your friends Pinterest pages and you’ll know exactly which ones want an engagement ring or a baby. These boards are public people.
Anyway, my point is that I spend a lot of time thinking about beautiful things. And sometimes I tend to forget that my life is beautiful right where it is. I don’t just want to see beautiful, I want to live beautifully. And that means putting those anythings to use right where you are….not where you wish or dream to be someday.
I want to stop and smell the roses so to speak. I want to enjoy my kids laughter. I want to enjoy my messy house without the nagging guilt of making it look perfect all the time. I want to enjoy summer with my kids at home and not feel like I have do dish them out to friends or camps every day(not that play dates and camps are bad…we’re doing both…..I’m just saying I don’t want to feel like the only way I can survive is to have those things all the time. I want to enjoy the relationships I’m building with my kids…and let them continue to build those relationships with each other. This takes work sometimes. Please don’t send me hate mail about summer camps). I want to see my life as beautiful regardless of where it is spent or what physical beauty is around me.
I want to invest in people. To build relationships that matter. I want to invest in the lives of the girls I get to teach and be their cheerleader and encourager. I want to love God with a passion that transcends all human understanding. To the point that I would be willing to drop it all and go to the ends of the earth for Him. Because He gave it all for me.
I want to live beautifully. I want to be willing to do anything that’s asked of me with an attitude of gratitude and thankfulness. To not grumble or complain or gripe. To let the beauty around me translate into the beauty that is my life and my family and my friends. So many things to look at that are more than just outward beauty. So many things to be thankful for, even when my life isn’t perfect.
I want to be brave and try things that scare me. I want to be willing to do things and really live life and do it with grace and passion. Because really, we only have one life to live on this earth and I want to make it count. I don’t want to lose sight of heaven, but I don’t want to be so focussed on the crazy that I miss what’s right in front of me. And yes, sometimes this might mean loading up our family and heading off to one of those beautiful places I’ve pinned on Pinterest. To have some adventure and fun and laughter in our lives. That to me, is living beautifully.